Lonely Home

It is bad...
Nowadays i am consistently feeling lonely and emo for no reasons. It's like part of my life just goes blank without her. But i never regret it, i know that's the right thing and the best thing to do. Perhaps i'm still not used to it, especially when i'm bored.

I didn't really change, i think. I'm still as lazy as before, or perhaps even lazier. I'm bored.. i crave to socialize with people.. and crave for trips.. and frankly, i crave for pure happiness. Hedonism, yeah, that's the word. Pleasure, pleasure and pleasure.. I'm poisoned... by the toxic of wanting to have eternal happiness.....

Okay, enough of my dream of eternal pleasure. it's reality here, and humans can't be always happy. Some people have 3 kinds of mood, positive, neutral and negative.. But not for me, i would only have either positive or negative mood, i rarely feel neutral. In other words, im either happy or sad, no in between. The good thing about it is, i feel happy more often than others; bad thing is: i feel sad more often than others too.

Yeah, now i'm in Ipoh. It was quite lonely in UTP, especially when my roommate and housemates and batchmates are busy. It is even lonelier at home. Oh.~ i miss my roommate. Does it sound gay? I hope not. haha.



Anyway, it's almost time for me to sleep.. I'm feeling so sleepy now.. direct influence from my roommate. Surely i would have to thank him, if his influence could make my face recover from the swarms of pimples. Goodnite.. and i hope i can have a more cheerful tomoro. Tonight... was bad.