Friday, February 18, 2011

Lonely Home

It is bad...
Nowadays i am consistently feeling lonely and emo for no reasons. It's like part of my life just goes blank without her. But i never regret it, i know that's the right thing and the best thing to do. Perhaps i'm still not used to it, especially when i'm bored.

I didn't really change, i think. I'm still as lazy as before, or perhaps even lazier. I'm bored.. i crave to socialize with people.. and crave for trips.. and frankly, i crave for pure happiness. Hedonism, yeah, that's the word. Pleasure, pleasure and pleasure.. I'm poisoned... by the toxic of wanting to have eternal happiness.....

Okay, enough of my dream of eternal pleasure. it's reality here, and humans can't be always happy. Some people have 3 kinds of mood, positive, neutral and negative.. But not for me, i would only have either positive or negative mood, i rarely feel neutral. In other words, im either happy or sad, no in between. The good thing about it is, i feel happy more often than others; bad thing is: i feel sad more often than others too.

Yeah, now i'm in Ipoh. It was quite lonely in UTP, especially when my roommate and housemates and batchmates are busy. It is even lonelier at home. Oh.~ i miss my roommate. Does it sound gay? I hope not. haha.



Anyway, it's almost time for me to sleep.. I'm feeling so sleepy now.. direct influence from my roommate. Surely i would have to thank him, if his influence could make my face recover from the swarms of pimples. Goodnite.. and i hope i can have a more cheerful tomoro. Tonight... was bad.

4 comments:

SexyMama said...

it doesn't sound gay at all! don't worry! if emo can come n talk to me, if u see me online. didn't know that u were emo last night
huhu!

Shwu Fei said...

ur roommate here means TPH?
No gay la...I always miss Sarah n May...although I just saw them this morning but evening will miss them d...

Wei Han said...

@bong, i was emo when i asked u to write blog that time. but later when i chat with u again that time, i felt better. thanx. :)
@fei, yeah, it's him. wow.. i know u all gmail chat everyday during internship. Sometimes when i'm too bored, i just 'watch' how u all chat using email. lol.

SexyMama said...

ha ha...okay okay! I am good in making people happy one...don't even have to try...because I naturally already clumsy and funny!