The Extra One

Odd one out. That's one of the best description to be used on me in my working environment.
Oh yeah, there's another better description that fits: The extra one.

I'm like the invisible one at work.
In fact, there's no difference between having me and not having me for my company. There's totally no need for me to exist in that company. Not to mention the company, I did not even have slightest contribution to my department even. It's a weird feeling, to be there, doing nothing and get salary.

I have two other colleagues who joined the company a little bit earlier than me. They are almost as free as I do, but they have internet access and I don't (yet). For some reasons, people of higher positions tend to give them some works to do, but not me, definitely not me. It's a weird situation, very weird.

I know things going to get much better after Raya festival. It's okay~ There's only 3 more working days before Raya comes... I'll be patient for being the Extra one for 3 more days.

Lesbians and Guilt

Lesbians
On the way back to my room after I had my lunch, i saw two lesbians holding hands. This is not the first time I saw it, and I think it is disgusting. The picture of them holding hands together was just awful. I'm not discriminating their sexual orientation, it's just that I hope they can try not to reveal it so openly. It doesn't matter what they want to do in their house or what, but displaying it so publicly just makes me sick. Especially both girls are tom-boy types with spiky hairs and baggy attire. How should i describe? It's like seeing two girls pretend to be like guys and have a gay relationship, covering both transsexual and gay relationship. Seeing that sight easily spoil my great mood for the day.

Guilt
We were at the same elevator with some of their friends. And once the lift reached my floor level, i couldn't wait to get out of that lift. However, one of their friends was blocking the way, which in my opinion is kinda stupid. Coz she was like standing at the middle of the elevator gate and she doesn't have even a slight intention to give way. However, before I started to growl "excuse me", one of the lesbians tries to indicate her friend to give way, and so she did give way (though it was more like me squeezing through a tiny space gap in between to get out). After getting out of the lift, on the way heading back to my house, I was thinking these few questions:

Why did I disapprove them so much? are they being lesbians something very wrong?
Why did I hate them? and they didn't even try to slightly offend me.
Why did I so care about them being tomboy and les? It's none of my business. Plus, they have their own choices.
What if they are good people? Even if they are les, they certainly can be very nice people as well.
What if I misunderstand them? If they aren't lesbians? What gives me rights to comment them this way?

So, it turns back to the same question. Why did I hate them? They have not offended me, nor do I think lesbians are sinful since everyone has their own right to choose their path(i'm free thinker). Even if they are lesbians, they can be good people as well. And why should I hate any kind of good people in that case? If they aren't lesbians but just close friends who hold hands all the time, the comments I gave just now must be hurtful. And  merely because of my initial judgment and wrong perception, it just made me disapprove the two girls so much! It makes me feel Guilty! very guilty. I understand the power of humans' perception, it can simply leads us to a wrong or bad conclusion. In this case, I'm lucky that I 'realized' that I'm being biased to them. But... in our lives, how many times would we 'realize' that we are being unfair to the others due to our own perceptions. All the while, we only blame, criticize and disapprove others but never question our own thinking. I think I learned a vital lesson here: never rely on our initial judgment and biased perception. I hope I can remember this incident and apply it in many other situations in the future. Yeah, I'm just HOPING, coz we all know that, it is not EASY to apply this in our lives. I hope you all learn something from here too.

Leaving from Home to another Home

So, tonight is the last night I live in my home in Ipoh. I suppose after today, I can't say that I'm still living in Ipoh anymore. I would be only 'staying' at Ipoh rather than living since it is no longer my permanent home.

Kinda miss it actually. I've never really distanced myself from this home since my uni is nearby and I almost go home every weekend during my study life. Home is like a sanctuary for me to avoid stress, troubles and irritating stuffs. Here, I spend my time rotting in front of computer playing games, reading novels, chatting and listening to music. But now, it is the moment to bid farewell to my mosquitoless room and my comfortable bed.

Leaving Ipoh tomoro to my another new home at KL, i have a mixed feeling. I'm excited to be able to start a new adventurous life while feeling anxious of the new changes it will bring to me. I'm not a person who loves changes (due to my lazy nature). Let's hope that my new Home will be as nice as or nicer than my previous home.

Let me have one last happy dream on my comfortable bed in my mosquitoless room tonight before I permanently move out. And I sadly admit, my holiday is ending very very soon...

Jealousy

Jealousy...
Sometimes i really jealous with someone else.. especially when they are better than me.

Why is someone smarter than me?
Why is someone healthier than me?
Why is someone better looking than me?
Why is someone more hardworking than me?
Why is someone luckier than me?
Why is someone kinder than me?
Why is someone have better achievement than me?
Why is someone ...

I understand everyone has his/her own strength and weakness. Some people got look but no brain. Some people got brain but short life. Some people got luck but worthless.
But still, i will admire people who are better than me in certain aspects, and i hate to be inferior when compared to them. Only if I'm SUPER well rounded.. Haha. i guess i'm just too greedy.

On second thought, if i'm super intelligent, very healthy, have the best look, very lucky, have very positive characteristics, and have superb achievement.... I suppose, the world wouldn't be as interesting as it is. BUT... I dun mind! LOL

Kuching Trip

This post is about the Kuching trip I had last month. Sorry for posting this so late, was obsessed with novels lately. Anyway, it should be 3 of us going to Kuching from KL. But for some awkward reasons, one of us ffk the trip last minute. So, it's just CH and me flew to Kuching.

Eric and Poh, the lovely couple

It was a 8-days trip, (Wednesday to Wednesday) and the first day is basically nothing much. Besides meeting our precious trip host, Charles who provide us accommodation and transport while being a tour guide himself. We did have a small BBQ dinner with JZ and friends. Basically, the first day was like an intro-day, warming up for next day.

It's worth to mention that the Crazy Charles wanted us to wake up at 6 something am the next day, which is definitely a soul-torturing task for me. Due to my sleep late habit, i found it difficult to sleep early at night. Thus, CH and I ended up sleep at 3am. With only roughly 3 hours sleep, we began our journey at Kuching tour. We were glad to meet with Charles' international friends, Poh and Eric from Thai and US. They were really funny and friendly, we mixed along easily.

    

That day, we traveled to many places including Orang Utan Park, Crocodile Farm, National Museum, Unimas, Here and There.. lol. Indifferent to our direct and indirect hint that we were tired and exhausted, our host, Charles insisted to bring us to many many places. Hence, most of the time I was sleeping in the car, trying to gain back some energy.

The picture at the left is a big big orang utan that actually made the other small small orang utans afraid and run away..

 (lazy to continue writing,.. give up... and back to reading my novel)

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(continue writing after finished my novel)

Due to laziness, I will continue this post pictorially. A picture is worth thousands words. So please be prepared for the millions words below.... (the pictures below arent arranged chronologically, coz... lazy mah)

befriended a crocodile at crocodile farm

Kuching's "Oh Jian' (fried oyster) really tastes better than peninsular Msia.

the rainforest festival concert, crowded and lively.

a ridiculous pose made by charles and I at frenship park

Back to Kuching airport, finally.

Eat at Ipoh Oldtown.. Ipoh ppl go to Kuching eat Ipoh food.. zzz

Long House... woohooo~ at cultural village

enjoying scenery at Beijing Palace.. 

Some weird vege that cant be found at Peninsular

omg.. one of the best Cha Kueh i ate! It's made from Yam!

we do go to cyber cafe to online.. well, i admit, i was the one who suggested.

i think i'm in danger.. 

I like Sarawak's kolok mee!

the Parliament Building, and i dunno why i posed it that way

They say this is the place u must take picture for all tourists

I visited the LARGEST waterfall in Asia

Omg... i. i.... am.. Admiral Cheng Ho?

 Haha.. that's it.. sorry for the laziness.. This post could have a better flow and better storyline.. But no one dislikes viewing pictures, I suppose. :P