This year birthday is as delightful as usual. I guess my brain mental level up again. This is because compared to last year, I have totally different thoughts and realization.
let's not talk about the thoughts i had first, let me tell you about what happened in my bday this year though it's not as physically exciting like last year.
2weeks before bday
We went to Ipoh PC fair.. and my siblings and my dad bought me an external hard disk.. Honestly, i didnt expect that. I was planning to buy it with my own money. (hey i'm not rich) then they paid it for me. Who would be so stupid not to accept it? Of coz, without much thinking i accept it la!
Bday eve (as if it's like any other festival, lol)
Like last year, i've been receiving a lot of early wishes tru sms. I'm very happy to read them actually. (for more details see my previous post). One of my utp frens disclosed to me today, saying that they planned to have celebration for me at first. But I've a meeting that night. Thus, not having it. I really happy with their intention. :) Like i said to many ppl, it's already enough to c the sincerity. If organizing this celebration is going to trouble so many ppl to plan and prepare and come.. it's just not worth it. I dun wan my bday to trouble others... It makes my bday bcome like a disaster instead of festival. Something worth mentioned was the tong sui made by my biao mei. I am always impressed by the tong sui she made. I guess I'm pretty vulnerable by self-made food (means not from purchase one). Easily touched by it. But honestly, biao mei, it is very sweet. But i ate all of them! hehe.. but i didnt drink all of them la.. The amount of liquid in that tong sui was enough for me wholeday. it was a big container eh... Ok.. now i regret of mentioning it. It will seem so unfair not to mention the others.. sorry ya, 'others'. I really appreciate ur present and wishes, but i just dun feel like write it all down here. I dun intend to write an appreciation post.
Bday
Actually the real day is very normal. Just like the other normal days. Except the part of the flooding facebook's bday comments i received that day. I totally didnt expect that. Perhaps all knew i dropped out frenster d. haha.. At the actual day of my birthday, which was yesterday, (oh i'm 20 years and 1 day old d, lol). Besides this, I got an extra bonus mark for my Artificial Intelligence test. It means a lot to me. I will write it in another post. But frankly, based on wainam's expression, which was the only audience of this story, the story seems boring. lol.
Celebration?
Oh.. i didn't celebrate my birthday at all. I haven't eaten any birthday cake yet. lol.. Dun pity me. It's okay. What i did on my birthday was to attend classes, driving back Ipoh, eating lunch with junior, playing games and eating dinner with tet khiun, online at home, watching "how i met your mother season 3" and that's all. Oh ya, and wondering how other people know my birthday. It was really something interesting to find out. Some of them, dun hav frenster and facebook and yet wish me birthday. ANd honestly, they dun seem those kind of frens who capable of knowing or remembering my birthday. haha.
Reflection
Hmm.. Honestly, I'm feeling happier on birthday this year than last year. Although no celebration or party was done for me and i dun receive much presents compared to last year, I think this time is better. Haha.. In my opinion, i think i really grow up d lo.. Entering age of 20, I dun mind the celebration stuffs and presents at all. Like I said, organizing a celebration or party is just as troublesome as organizing a big event. I personally hate joining events and thus I understand how inconvenient it is to have a birthday party. And I'm not young anymore; I'm not still studying in Foundation where everyone is eager to throw party. In fact, they have celebrated my bday twice since I'm in UTP d. Since long ago, my family stopped celebrating bday. In fact, they usually give me cash as bday present. lol.. realistic huh?
If i dun mind celebration/ presents, then what do I mind? birthday wishes? nope... I learned to appreciate more this year. To me, birthday is nothing. Really nothing.. why would one celebrate the anniversary of his/her birthdate? makes no sense at all. Appreciate myself? lol. From my perspective, I know what my birthday functions as... My birthday is not to celebrate my birth date, but to offer opportunities to foster the relationship of friends and family. Did you realize, many friends who u have not contacted for long time actually send bday messages to you? Did you realize you feel closer to those friends who bother to give u bday wishes even when they are busy? I do. I do. I'm happy to receive my bro's msg, my mom's msg, my close frens msg... everyone actually. I know some of them are just pass by and send a bday msg, but I still appreciate EACH OF them very much. I was happy the whole day... receiving ppl's bday wishes. made me feel that i'm not alone. lol. Somehow I feel that the way I write this blog is like Mel's style. very 'feeling' kind. anyway, ignore that, I guess I replied every sms I received, didnt I?
Entering 20
It's quite a different feel, when you finally increment your age from 19 to 20. 19 was like the last year of doing crazy and stupid things. Now as a ty-ager (a term i like to use), it's like a level up. Things that I used to like, it's not important anymore. Things tat i dun care previously, now I begin to realize its importance. I cant say I'm mature. In someway, i think 70% of my mind still undergoing a 'growing' process. But i'm sure i'm bcoming mature. There are something you can work hard to change and something that you just have to accept it as it is. anyway, that's not the main point. I'm in 2nd year right now. It just feels so fast. this is the fifth sem (third year) i'm studying in UTP already. I've changed a lot... become lazier, become more emo. It seems like all of them are bad changes.. haha. Really cannot deny that the time flies.
My birthday wishes
I hope you guys interested in this part. I think you all might find it a bit boring reading those above. I received a lot of birthday wishes this year. It should be more than last year. SO i assume my birthday wishes will be granted. lol. Many friends wish me "happy birthday" and that certainly comes true, I'm really happy on my birthday. Let's see my other wishes.
Hey before I start, dun say I'm greedy if I list down too much o.. ;)
1. I want to be smarter, wiser and more intelligent.. stupid like hell now, feel like banging the wall.. Intelligence is what i always want..
2. I want to maintain my CGPA. lol. ok.. very unlikely.. this sem got hard subject. (and those who are very sure I could achieve 4 flat again this sem, if i cant get, u all mz belanja me a meal ya!)
3. I want to have a successful relationship. yes, i'm still single, It has been 2 years since the last relationship, and i think I'm ready for a new one. But, I know it's not going to be easy, i want a successful one.. so i wont simply pick and have a blind date. So, if you are interested, you can dial this number: 012 5399xxx.. jz kidding la. lol
(all three wishes are all about me, now it's for family and friends, i cant be too selfish right?)
4. I wish the people I care esp my family and people i dun care but they care me (lol, very weird to say in this way) will be healthy and cheerful. In fact, i made this wish every year. lol.
5. I wish there isnt any war or natural disaster happened in the world. In fact i made this wish every year also, but it doesnt seem to achieve.
(An additional wish)
6. I know I'm lazy. And it's probably cannot be cured and has become part of my nature. I wish to change my laziness... at least make me a bit less lazy. I think i wil die starving one day bcoz lazy to eat.
ok... that's all. I hope it follows what you all said. That my bday wishes will come true. And if they come true, thank to you all again! ^.^ Before I end this post, I planned to give you see some interesting photos of me past few years till now.
Year 2004 Form 3
Year 2005, form 4
Year 2006 form 5
Year 2007 UTP foundation
Year 2008 UTP 1st year
this year 2009, UTP 2nd year
ps: I'm really fatter last time eh..
