Competition

A random thought after watching a competition/game where the winner was very happy and the loser was very sad.

We all know the winner was basically ecstatic, feeling very proud and having a great sense of achievement. Happy ending for the winner. good.

But, the sad part of the story is the loser, who was actually shedding tears of sadness, feeling deeply disappointed and blaming self for the incompetence.

Well, i know fair competition motivates and improves people's performance. but is it true that one way of making humans feeling happy is to prove/feel themselves more superior than the others? I think it's true and it doesn't sound like a good thing. To me, it's like building happiness over others' sadness.

You dont think it's true? Then tell me, do you feel good when you are excel in something compared to the others? You might say, you are feeling happy because u are good in it, not because you are better than the rest. Well, if you are not better than others, then you wouldnt be good in it, and you wouldn't really feel happy over it. Think about this, do you feel happy that you have the capability to eat and breathe? no, you don't. Coz everyone else can. And if you really do feel happy about being capable to eat and breathe, it's because you compared yourself to people who cant.. and that's why you are feeling happy over it. And again, back to my point, you are happy because you are better than the rest.

年年岁岁花相似 岁岁年年人不同

又一年了。

觉得大家都变了。

距离也远了。

也变得不在乎了。



怎么觉得周围的人戴的面具更厚了呢？

心里多少有那么点感叹。

物是人非呀~



自己也变了，

也不敢肯定自己是往好的方向转变呢，

还是往更坏的方向转变？

也许好坏参半吧。

只能说自己稍微地成长了，

也比较懂得保护自己。



还记得小时候我们常说

他是好人，他是坏人...

现在却觉得这世界上坏人并不多，

但是...

好人更少！

大多数人都亦好亦坏

只要无利益冲突，大家都是好人；

反之要是有利益冲突，...

大家心知肚明吧。



有时自己想做一个好人，

但是， 做好人...

苦啊！


无法否认，

自己的确变了。

岁岁年年人不同，

很好奇

明年的你我又会如何不同呢？

Car Accident

I had an accident last week. The good news is: I'm alive uninjured! hooray~ The bad news is: my car is going to hibernate for quite a while.

Anyway, long story short, this is how it happens:

It was raining (not heavy) and I was driving on the highway. The road is certainly wet but otherwise, my vision is clear, the sky is bright and the sun is still smiling. (like this  --> :D ) As any normal human being would be, I drove my car in 110km/h, a very lawful driver, strictly following the speed limit. (a role model to others). Then when my speed is slightly over 110km/h, i decided to slow down, so i slightly braked my car.

... It's weird that after I stepped on the brake pedal, my car actually skidded a bit. I was confused and couldn't understand why it happened. Panic stepped in. And what people do when they are in panic? Yes, I stepped on my brake pedal harder. And guess what happened? My car made an S turn, followed by an O turn. My car was actually spinning and I totally lost control of my car. Fortunately, there wasn't any car behind me, as they probably couldn't avoid hitting me (drive fast in highway) while i was spinning (taking up both lanes). So, luckily there wasnt any car, else you might be now visiting me in the hospital, or worse, mourning me in front of my grave.(hmmm.. wonder how you will react if my skeleton suddenly climbed out from the ground... eh, why am i thinking that?)

Before knowing the real reason of that accident, I actually thought i was being cursed. Well, it was impossible that my car just skidded like that, it never happened before. It was just a normal road. Perhaps i did too much sins and that was the karma, a misfortune to fall upon me.

Then after that I know the real reason, it was my tires. the treads of the tires were completely faded, it was bald! And we all know that the tires wont go bald in just few days, it indicates that i'd been driving in a great risk for several weeks or months! I totally changed my previous thought after that; instead of being cursed, i think that i was being blessed. I'm still alive driving a car with treadless tires for such a long period! What a miracle.

Anyway, this post wasnt so much on the story.. or consequences.. or what i did or what i should do to prevent this... it is about my feelings after the accident. And here it goes:
I wasnt really afraid that i was going to die when my car totally lost control. To be honest, i was puzzled, i totally did not understand why my car would lose control. I've been busy thinking bout the possibilities or reasons to explain why it happened during the spinning moment. And after it happened, and when i was safe, then only i realized how dangerous the situation was.


Life wasn't predictable. It can be just that close to death. And i;m glad that i escaped it. Imagine if this accident didnt happen, i'm certain that something similar will happen in the near future, as i totally unaware that my tires had gone spoilt. The situation could be so much worse than what im facing now. So, i think i'm really being blessed and im thankful for that.

If you had just escaped death, somehow your thoughts will slightly change. You would forget those minor silly things that bugged and annoyed you for years. And started to appreciate things. Well, this is how i feel at the moment. There really are many unimportant things that we should not bother, and many other important things that we should place as our priorities. Perhaps u would just take it for granted when you read this, but once u faced it, u will understand what i was trying to convey.

Anyway, last piece of advice, check your tires. I was told to check my tires, but i actually didnt foresee this to happen to me. What i checked was the sufficiency of air inside the tires, i totally didn't expect the treads of my tires to went off completely. I think i didn't notice it even when i was pumping air into my tires. Things can be very minor that u never think it would happen to you. But just for safety purpose, check it once a while. Emmm..  Just in case, you might as well check it right now immediately after reading this post. :-) Have a happy life ahead!

I am very disappointed with myself. I wish I can have someone to share with. I wish I have someone to rely on. And I really wish someone can help me and save me. Why it has become like this? So disappointed... WITH MYSELF!

Inspiring Conversation with my boss

Once upon a time, okay well, i actually remember the time, it was december 2011, my 38-years-old boss and I were having an outstation duty around Pahang. And since I was quite a fresh employee that time, we carpooled in his car.

SUDDENLY, we came across a theme park. There was a big dinosaur trying to eat us. I urged my boss to drive faster.. Luckily, the dinosaur didn't see us. Phew.. we managed to escape from dinosaur. Thank god!
Okay.. needless to say, that was a crap, now back to the real story below:

SUDDENLY, we came across a secluded land (area) with a lot of trees nearby which looks kinda creepy. And so the conversation between my boss and I began:
"

Me   :  Hey.. (pointing to that area) what's that place?

Boss :  (shaking his head) Dunno. Probably just a parking place.

Me   :  Actually, I know what's that place. (with a mysterious tone, my close friends would know how it sounds like)

Boss : You know? (surprised tone) What's that place? 

Me   : Once upon a time, there were 7 pretty ladies stayed there. 

Boss : Oh really?

Me   : However, they were witches and they performed ritual every night to summon the spirits of the tree.

(Before my boss spoke out any word, I resumed..)

Me   : They performed countless times of the ritual, but the summoning wasn't successful. So, they gave up and killed themselves. The End. (giving out a sad sigh)

(pause for a while)

Boss:  Very inspiring story~

"

LOL! Out of so many responses that I was expecting, "Very inspiring story~" was totally something out of my expectation. Hey, where can you get such a nice boss that you could even crap to? I'm jz lucky!

ps: the mysterious tone i mentioned above also known as the crappy tone, whenever i use that tone, my friends will know exactly that my next sentence will definitely be a crap.